Almost a year after welcoming son, Caiden Zane, with husband, Ryan Lochte, Kayla Rae Reid, is sharing her battle with postpartum depression.
While hesitant to discuss what she was going through at first, Reid says she wanted to help others by telling her story just as she had been helped by hearing stories from moms who also had similar experiences.
“Hearing other people’s stories gave me so much hope in myself, and to not give up,” Reid says in a video, entitled My Journey with PPD: Postpartum Depression, which she posted on YouTube Wednesday.
“ gave me perseverance to just continue waking up each day, and you know saying that, ‘I will get through this.’”
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Reid, who first realized she had postpartum depression around the time her baby boy was three-months-old, says she had “physical” changes. “I was so exhausted, and it was to the point where I just wanted to sleep all day long,” explains Reid. “I did not want to wake up. I would be like, ‘I can’t wait until night time, so I can go back to bed and just lay there.’”
“I also was just questioning I don’t know my life I guess,” Reid shares, adding that she went to the grocery store one time and just remembered feeling like everyone was “living a life” and hers “was on pause.”
“I was dead inside,” Reid candidly recalls. “It makes me so sad because you don’t want to feel like that because you just gave birth to something. You know you are their everything, and everything you do is for them. I don’t know why I felt like that, but I did.”
In addition, Reid says she felt constantly overwhelmed and felt as though she “couldn’t handle anything.”
Reid also reveals that she even took placenta pills in hopes of potentially avoiding the “baby blues.” “They didn’t work for me because I did not take them religiously,” she explained. “And I wish I would have just because I could have made some sort of a difference.”
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Nearly one year later since having her little one, Reid still doesn’t necessarily think she’s “overcome” postpartum depression. “I still have good days and bad days,” she admits.
Source:: Usa news site – Culture