Weeks before August Ames died in an apparent suicide at just 23, the stunning porn star made the shocking admission that she was sexually abused as a child, RadarOnline.com has learned.
On the Holly Randall Unfiltered podcast with host Holly Randall on September 13, Ames claimed she was molested several times throughout her childhood. But, she claimed when she approached her father about the abuse, he refused to believe her.
“I have an awful relationship with my dad,” Ames told Randall. “I tried to forget about it and talk to him about how I was feeling about my childhood and everything, because there was a lot of sexual molestation — not from my father but from his [redacted] — so I had to suffer from being molested by my [redacted]. When I finally told my dad, he didn’t believe me,” she explained to Randall.
“The issue was never resolved,” Ames continued. “All my life I grew up a liar by my dad and his side of the family.”
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Ames, also known by legal name Mercedes Grabowski, said she tried calling her father again to try and mend their relationship a few weeks before the podcast, but he still believed she was lying. (Ames’ father has not responded to Radar’s request for comment.)
“It was just awful. It’s still recent where I have to keep myself occupied or else I start thinking about all that s**t and then I fall into a depression,” she shared. “I try to do therapy. I hate that word. I hate therapy.”
Erotic photographer Randall reassured Ames by telling her she too was in therapy. Ames admitted that it was different for her in therapy, because she was in the adult film industry.
“I would get in contact with some people and then I would feel badly because they’d be like ‘What’s your profession and I’d be like ‘Oh, I’m in the adult industry’ and then I’d feel like they’re like ‘Oh, that’s the whole reason that you are the way you are’ and then I’d get turned off,” Ames explained.
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Ames also opened up to Randall about her experience with drugs. At the time of the interview, she said she was clean of alcohol and …
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